Karma's a Bitch

I'm tired of waking up in the morning and asking Him to "please get me through today."

The stress and struggles fog up the joy and happiness I am blessed with everyday. I allow myself to give negative moments heavier weight than it should be allowed. I tend to forget that human struggle isn't everlasting with strong will and good faith for change. There are joys in life here on earth that one should *always* thank Him for at the wake of every morning and at the end of each day.

I'm tired of crunching and compacting time to fit the desires that I am not called to have. The expectations I am to meet are not to hit deadlines, but to do my utmost best and show my full potential. I am called to express every positive sense of myself, and in doing so I will be able to get closer towards the process of becoming what He wants me to completely be in order to be fully prepared when my time comes to be with Him face to face.

It is a waste to have my life here on earth be consumed with hatred in my heart. I won't be able to function well and do what I am called to do, which is to serve Him and Him alone. By serving Him, my calling is to help myself, so that I can help others. I am not helping myself by keeping stagnant, or retreating. I must continue to walk forward with my eyes open and my heart warm.

I must continue to step away from fire, let it fizzle, so that I will continue to walk.

Love others as you would yourself. If you don't love yourself, then you will never grow. If you don't want to grow...then why are you here? If you act as though there is no purpose, but believe in the solid fact that there *is,* then you must begin with the process of finding it. Only then will you be able to smile.

Amen? Amen.

2 Big Events!

#1) MITZI AND STEPHEN ARE GETTING MARRIED!! Ohmigah! And the countdown begins... :-D

#2) Guess who's coming home the first weekend of November? hehehehe ;-) OHMIGAH I'M SO EXCITED!!! :-D YAY TUMBLEWEEDS!!! See y'all soon! :-D

~me

PS
OHHH!!! *and* San Fran...yes. :-) But that's a secret!!! (shhh, I didn't tell you!)

NOOOO!!! I QUIT!!!!

NO MORE DIAPERS!! I QUIT I QUIT I QUIT! This is beyond ridiculous!! It's riDONKulous!! RiDONKulous, I say!!! Rawr! BAD BAD JUJU!

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diaper diaper diaper.

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What a blessing...

Last Sunday's mass meant the *world* to me! Thanks for all those who supported Cabrini's Music Ministry. Especially to you, Kuya Jesse, for going out of your way and risking the wrath of your director at St. John Basco. :-P

We're going through so many changes...and it was a really refreshing start...and it truly felt as though we're moving forward, each one with strong, prayerful hearts.

It's an honor to work with you all and I look forward for what's to come. :-)
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To all my friends and family:

Come and worship with us at 11AM at St. Francis Cabrini in Lakewood! It's good times. ;-)

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~me

Post Scriptum:

Don't take Alli. It's bad juju. If you do, grab a diaper. That's all I'm saying.

I'm Done

This is what I've learned in the past several months...and it has been finally been wrapping up for me:

This is real life. There are real life situations that need to be the core focus of where your attention should go. There is no time in life to nit-pick and cause burden to things that can be overcome with allowing yourself to think through with a peaceful mind and heart. But if you consume your life with no sensitivity, mindfulness, care, and concern for those around you? And you continue to judge the exterior and continue to only be self-indulging into your mere human desires that are not being fulfilled, and you are not willing to seek into the hearts of others that could truly be genuine...but you choose to stay within your hatred...how can you sleep at night?

It is inexcusable to spread slander about one whom you know nothing about. It is unnecessary to feel the need to be informed about things for curiosity's sake. There is too much pain and hurt in this real world...

I'm doing myself a favor. I'm finally seeking justice. I'm finally seeking peace. I'm finally creating a healthy foundation for myself through Him. He is all I need. His guidance is all I should follow from this point forward. Now more than ever, I will continue to try my utmost best to no longer have negative surroundings consume me and make me swell with tears.

I pray for answers tomorrow night. I pray for peace, resolve, solution, and the safety of my loving family, my strong support of friends, and the care of my ministry. This has gone on for far too long. And I am ready to move on.