Pain

"Pain is useful for avoidance, for getting away when there's time to get away, but when it is end game, and no way back, pain is likely to be turned off, and the mechanisms for this are wonderfully precise and quick." ~Lewis Thomas

Calming Down

"I Trust You" by James Fortune

Even though I can’t see
And I can’t feel Your touch
I will trust you, Lord
How I love You so much
Though my nights may seem long
And I feel so alone
Lord my trust is in you
I surrender to You


So many painful thoughts
Travel through my mind
And I wonder how
I will make it through this time


But I'll trust You
Lord it’s not easy
Sometimes the pain in my life
Makes You seem far away
But I’ll trust you
I need to know You’re here

Through the tears and the pain
Through the heartache and rain
I'll trust You.


Everything that I see
Tells me not to believe
But I’ll trust you, Lord
You have never failed me
My past still controls me
Will this hurt ever leave?
I can only trust You
No one loves like You do


So many painful thoughts
Travel through my mind
And I wonder how
I will make it through this time


But I'll trust You
Lord it’s not easy
Sometimes the pain in my life
Makes You seem far away
But I’ll trust you
I need to know You’re here

Through the tears and the pain
Through the heartache and rain
I'll trust You.

BURNING HOLE

THEY ARE FUCKING DRIVING ME AWAY, AND IF ANYONE SUPPORTS ME OUT THERE, SOMEONE TELL THEM TO BACK THE FUCK OFF OF ME OR I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL FUCKING KILL MYSELF!