I Will Smile Today :-)

Hello, friends. I'm happy people I care about read this and check up...I feel the love. ;-)

Rough nights are difficult to recover from. Situations which challenge oneself to fight for the chance to smile. ~It's hard, but it's not impossible.

If you can think outside of the box you end up being trapped in, there is *always* a way out to smile once again.

Love. It's a beautiful and powerful thing. What one invests in it...can be worth a great deal of wonderful life lessons learned. And creates the strongest of memories which shapes and develops who you are...who you can become...who you want to be.

Practicing love makes one flourish. Love others. Love thyself. Love Him. Express love in each and every way you know how. Like I always say...if you invest faith it what it can do for you and for others, it truly can be a beautiful thing.

...oh look! I'm smiling. :-D...

Rekindling Friendships

I'm so thankful for this point in my life. Reuniting with friends and developing more with the acquaintances from long ago. It's very much needed in my life where much was lacking. These new bonds...it's such a wonderful feeling.

I'm excited for the journey and new path I am taking. :-) And I am truly looking forward to what is to come.

Today is going to be a fabulous and memorable day. :-) I can't wait!

I miss you all. And "hello" to the new. :-)

Love

I *love* love. Hate is not my style.

Love matches my eyes better, *and* it goes with my outfit. ;-)

Diary entry: Disappointed, but not surprised. And it's ok.

To claim to wanting a future. To say one dreams of grasping the ideal euphoric state of mind. And yet...

Kills the future they claim to want with speaking and blasting out the wounds into the public eye with such intricate detail again and again...continuing to go about without thinking of the consequence!!...which is loss...As if nothing was learned from the times before...where the action killed the dream because the thought of loss was not at heart. The only thought that came to mind was revenge. Release. Stress-relief by any means necessary. Where is the growth?

To hurt someone in the public eye time and time again...especially when this is to people that you claim to hold dear to your soul...that eventually, will intermix with everyone around you and the one you love will be presented to them...but the one you love is the one you announce as your downfall in life? And you share with the world the reasons why? Question: Is this one of the times where the good no longer exists unless you're carrying it in your hand the entire time?

And in ANY of this! Is this what love is? Don't claim what you *think* you see is comparable to what is real. What you think is not me. What you vent is not what you see. Your thoughts do not mirror what you face. It has been and still is safe to say that what you assume is not what is real. If anything...you're a depiction of my past and I'm a glimpse of what future could be like when one chooses to think of the consequences before they speak and throw, but nothing more. How you act versus what you claim of me? I'm sorry...but they're not one in the same. I still smile when I think of the future. I still smile when I hold onto parts of my past. When I think of the now? It's when I must turn away because it gives an upsetting frown of disappointment.

I'm not mad. I'm not shaken. If we were to be similar to any emotion, it would be numbness. I'm numb of the present. But this is good because it gets me that much closer to the future. :-) Thank you. However it takes for you to get there does affect tomorrow, but it lets me go for now with a peace of mind...thank you for giving me more reason to walk...with a smile towards the future.

Freelance Smile

**I had a very blessed week.**

I was reminded of what it takes to smile and how easy it is to attain.
All I had to do was open my eyes and reach for what is in front of me
...a dream for a true tomorrow. A beautiful euphoric reality.

Dark clouds may come my way, and it's only natural for challenges to appear.
For this ground I walk on is nothing more than earth.
-Hardships. Negative encounters made potentially for me to falter.
...but the light is becoming much brighter now.

This warm, bright, comforting, and consoling light.
This light is breaking down the barriers of the treacherous fog.

These attempts of lightning bolts and ferocity wanting to strike...
...this light calms it all.

You are my clear, bright, and warm light.
You make me smile.
And I'm thankful more and more each day that this is becoming within my reach.

I've prayed long and hard for this moment.
And here you are...my parallel. My mirror.

An untouchable fantasy, becoming flesh.

I pause for a moment. Close my eyes, turn my head away from the darkness that follows behind me.

I have opened my eyes. Your light is not blinding.
This warmth...it brightens and forms my smile.

I thank you for my new goal.

...to be your light.

Happy Easter!

Hi all :-) Happy Easter to you all. :-)

My weekend was very eventful and spiritually filled. :-) Slightly exhausting, (needed to take a few cat naps), but everything went really well from Good Friday and on. :-) It was a very moving and meaningful weekend.

I hope the beginning of your Easter season went well too!

Just a brief "Hi" :-)

Take care!

Miracle!!!

This is a little late to share, but I want to share it anyway!

For *weeks* I have been coughing up a lung...since...the weekend of March 14th?

Anyway, last week was probably at its worst. I lost my voice! I was squealing and squeaking...for those who remember my 21st birthday, that was the last time it was ever *that* bad.

Last Sunday was Palm Sunday. My most favorite day of the Lenten season. It was the first Sunday going back to my church to sing and my voice was completely *shot* the night before! I prayed to Him...please please *PLEASE* let me sing with the congregation.

...that morning? Voice was BACK in full effect. :-D yayyyyy! The mass went *SO* well! AND it was a sunny day, went to the beach...good times good times. :-)

But now my cough is back. :-( So for that one day, I thank Him a million times over. :-)

The end!...for now ;-)

-OH WAIT! and yesterday I took a walk on the waterfront, saw a little ducky dive in the water. Very cute. Just thought I would share :-D hehe